“I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws.”(Ezekiel 36:26-27)
Have you received your new heart as yet? I did when I was forty years old. God delivered me from this perverted world and placed a new heart in me, one that He could work on and change to become more like our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. He could not work on my old heart which was made of stone, therefore, He had to put in a new one that could be molded.
As a young man growing up I used to mock Christians, Jehovah Witnesses, Muslims and anyone who claimed to be holy. I would torment them and point out all of their faults until they eventually got so angry with me, they would explode. Then, I would feel justified that they were not a good person. Back in those days, my favorite supervisor at work was what we call in local dialect ‘a cuss bud’. I looked up to him because to me he seemed genuine. If things were not going right, he would come out in a friendly way and say ‘We were doing crap’, in much more offensive language.
Whenever you went to ask him a question, every sentence in his response had the ‘f’ word in it. and to me that was cool.
I vowed to be like him if ever I became a supervisor.
Well, a few years after I got my promotions and I had two guys under my wings as my staff. Believe it or not, although we had some challenging managers to report to, we were a happy bunch because the swearing used to ease the frustration for us. I soon had these two young respectable men, who people liked a lot, cursing more than me and they were enjoying themselves.
Many years passed by and I came to realize that there was a true God and I turned to my religion to try to find Him.
So I started going to church regularly and I tried to be a good person by the church’s standard. The reason I did this was because I heard about heaven and hell and I didn’t want to go to hell. My goal was to do just enough good deeds to get me into heaven, but deep down inside I still had a desire to curse and continue with sin in my life. I thought if no one knew, then it would not be a problem. In the office I was known as the ‘silent cuss bud’.
So on the outside I would pretend to be a ‘goodie two shoes’ but on the inside I was battling with lust and obscenity. Eventually, I realized that I was living a lie and that the church was not helping me. Going to church became such a dull routine, that there was a time when I could have recited the entire service word for word. I thought to myself, if the priest could not make it one day, I could do the service for him, because it was no big deal. In the end, I would go to church, sleep through the parts that we were seated and when it was over, driving back home, I would ask my wife ‘So what did the priest say today?’
Deep down inside, I knew there was much more to God, the creator of the world, and I knew that what I was doing was not going to get me closer to Him.
I never understood what it meant to be ‘born again’. I thought it was just another kind of religious ritual that would once more turn into boredom after a while. One day someone asked me if I had a relationship with the Lord. I thought to myself ‘Who does he feel he is talking to?’ This guy said to me,’ I know that you go to church, but do you have a relationship with Jesus Christ?’ He was from the same religious background as I was, but he told me that he had a relationship with the Holy Spirit, which was living in him. He invited me to a meeting which he said was not about religion but about Jesus Christ and it took me eight months before I finally made up my mind to go to the meeting. Something would always come up or I would feel like I was betraying my religion.
No matter how hard I tried to put it off though, I felt something inside of me saying that God wanted me to hear from Him. So after eight months of procrastination, I decided to go and find out what the fuss was all about with this meeting.
The true love of God was preached and I felt as if God was speaking directly to me.
At the end when the speaker asked if anyone wanted to give their life to Christ “to be born again” my hand went up without any resistance. I knew that God had called me that day. The bible says in (John 3:3-8) Jesus replied, ‘Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again.’ ‘How can someone be born when they are old?’ Nicodemus asked. ‘Surely they cannot enter a second time into their mother’s womb to be born!’ Jesus answered, ‘Very truly I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless they are born of water and the Spirit. Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit. You should not be surprised at my saying, ‘You must be born again.’ The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.’
I was now born again. No rituals, no big ceremony and no whining.
All that was required was for me to understand that there was nothing that I could do to save myself, believe that Jesus Christ paid for my sins on the cross, receive Him as my Lord and Saviour and repent from my sins. I distinctly remember the next day I was driving home from work and someone gave me a bad drive. I immediately responded with serious foul language and gestures that I was accustomed to. However, soon after, I felt regret for what I had done.
Never had I felt that way before, after showering someone with a mouthful of obscene language. I told God that I was sorry and I felt Him say don’t worry, I forgive you. I now understand that when we are born again we don’t get back the same heart, but a new one. One that God’s Holy Spirit can relate to and He works on us, shaping us into the person that He has called us to be. The process can be short for some people and longer for others. If you are resistant, it takes a longer time for Him to do His work. God has written His commandments on my new heart and His Holy Spirit is abiding in me convicting me of sin. No longer am I bound to the law of religion and everything now makes sense.
Recently I met one of the staff members that I had corrupted in the past.
When he greeted me, he automatically began to use obscene language and I couldn’t take it. I had to tell him about my experience with the Lord. He could not believe his ears. He said that he looked up to me and that he always used to look forward to coming to work with me as his supervisor in the past because of the way we related to each other. That confession really hurt me and I had to now tell him more about Jesus Christ. Like me in the in the old days, he was aware about God but there was no relationship as yet. I told him all about my life since I was born again and he listened attentively. I apologized for leading him astray and I prayed that he would one day surrender to the Lord.
If you are struggling with sin in your life and you have tried almost everything to change and it has not worked, try surrendering to Jesus Christ. He wants you to call on Him.
He is waiting to hear from you. Do not be like me and allow pride to keep you back from having your own experience with God. God wants to give you a new heart. He will reveal Himself to you and you will be totally transformed. The things that used to worry you would seem like nothing when you compare it with the love of God. You will become a new person in Christ and your old ways will pass away. That has always been my experience and I know God wants to share it with you too. I now live well because I love God. I pray that you will make a decision to invite Jesus Christ into your life today.
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